360 degree turnover

after long time no upload my blog,i decided to start with what i discover during this period of time---human is the animal which have the most wisdom,but they are all so flexible and will always feel regret because of the opportunity cost which had left behind by them.no wonder what decision had they make,either right or wrong decision,they will sure regret with their choice.i took myself as an example.
i am the only son in my family,so i will always think that if i has brother or sister like my friends,i will be so happy because got people play and have fun at childhood and share my happiness and sadness with me or they are beside me for be my listener or concern or give me advice when i needed.but,in another hand,i do not like people disturb or sharing my things.so,i also cant image how my feeling if i has a brother or sister,will i be happy or suffer?this question i think do not have people will know,included myself or parents or friends who have brother and sister.
at last time,i prefer listen to more music and less sound from her.but,since yesterday night,i only relief that how important is her voice for me.now,i can listen to music for 24 hrs in a day because of some problem.since i come to utar at kampar start my study,she accompany me every week til last week.i think also has around one year already.life without she really so boring and no color,specially at night time.ever i has exam at tomorrow or do assignment till midnight,i must heard her voice before go to bed.but,now she leave me alone at the back and she continue her journey.she requested me to give her one week's time to think about her future.i hope that she can till accompany me,but i will respect her choice and what is good for her.
another example,last time,i always think that how good if i do not has a roomate because i can do anything that i want such as i can open the music with loud speaker without use ear phone to listen to my favourite music and radio,i can study till midnight without needed to close one light in my room,i can clean my room everyday without living in a dirty room because i am a people who do not like dirty so much,i can sleep or not sleep whatever time i like without needed to sleep more early or act more silence when i back from outside during midnight because tomorrow he have class at early morning or late evening,i can eat dinner more early in the evening without need to wait for he to eat dinner at late night......but,since he went to k.l study,i started to miss the living life style which has he involved in.i feel so weird because i think that i will be more happy and freedom witout him.but,i am wrong already.anyway,he had gone and it is a truth.so,i cant do anything,just can let time make me come out from the memory which has him in it.
my last word---i will always remember the nice and worst time that we have before together although the time which we have together is short but it will be my most momerable moment in my mind and soul till forever.i also hope that we can have such chance together again in the future or forever.the above words are wrote to give some people who i cared and most importance to me in my life.hope these people can know what i am feeling and thinking now.
in conclusion,as a human being,please cherish what is putting in front of you all and do not let it go away so easily if you like it.so that,although we will feel regret about the choice or action we made in the future,we will feel happy in this moment when we decided to believe in what we had chosen.we can think about the future before we make any decision,but we cant sure that the future which we are thinking will come true.the only thing that we can to now is---JUST DO IT AND CHERISH THIS STOPPED MOMENT WHICH BASED ON THE RESULT OF WHAT WE ARE BELIEVING NOW!!!