Letter

to my dear fren A:

tat day u say tat u wil waiting 4 me 4 another 3 yrs,bt i think tat once i chosen the road which im walking nw,tat is nt a limited time 4 u 2 wait me ady.cuz i say true d,after i finished tis stage at kampar,i dun knw whether i qualification 2 cont my future study?bt,if i cant cont study,i think i wil start my working stage as u nw ady,i nw oso can feel the pressure tat is waiting me in the future,or mayb there r more n more waiting 2 eliminate me.so,tat day in front of ppl i dun tel me only,bt tis is my true voice:pls dun put so much hope on me cuz i knw my bad habit d,mayb it cause by my D,bt i think i oso cant gv all the fault on him d lah cuz in the future v all ppl oso need to pay 4 wat hv v done in the past.i cant promise u anything in tis stage,bt i wil try my best 2 reach a more mature stage in spirit.when i reached tat stage like u nw?i cant predict oso cant promise,hope tat day wont come b4 im able 2 2 so.i knw tat u only hope is tat i wil return 2 the right road in the spirit n the oso wat i hope tat i can 2 it,sometime word r easy 2 say bt hard 2 fulfill it.i und ur feeling d cuz i oso waiting 4 some1 tat cant gv me any promise or even hope,bt wat u r waiting is totally nt same as wat im waiting lah.i knw tat if u read tis letter,at tis stage,u wil scold me tat y u want waiting some1 tat is an outsider?i oso cant ans ur question cuz tis feeling is so weird d,i finally can und tat the feeling btw fren n love is so hard 2 chase,feel n show......bt wat i knw is the feeling is really exist in my heart n mind.mayb im growing up in the family tat is nt so support by spirit cuz wat i can c is tat my M is suffering frm so much thing.the reason is wat?cuz she done something following the rule?i cant comment or say wat on tis issue cuz i nv reached tat stage b4 n mayb im nt enough mature 2 think abt these problem in the spirit way.wateven lah cuz the past history cant rewrite or repeat n i really dun want 2 c it again.

mayb tat day u told me tat thing,make me reflash abt the happy n funny past time when im til a chird or mayb a naught bro 4 u.cuz u always oso c i been scold by ppl d lah,i think u oso hv b used to it ady loh.i can remember tat everytime after i been scold,u oso wil console me d,bt tat last word frm u always oso same d:can u try 2 b more good boy so tat i cant heard ppl scold u again?ha3...mayb u nt remember anything ady or these memory r nt something 4 u,bt these really worth 4 me 2 remember all the time. 1 time i want 2 play game v u,so i sit the place more behind in the bus,finally i been scold again loh cuz im the 1st ppl who reached n up the bus mah,so ppl think tat i should gt a nice seat d.who knw i hv dissapointed some1?he3...cuz ur some1 like 2 sit more behind d seat in bus d mah bt my some1 like 2 sit more in front place d.bt,i hv 1 question til nw oso cant solve d:y ur some1 like 2 sit the behind seat in the bus d?if can,ans me when u r free or reaaly knw the reason.til hv 1 big event happen d as i remember.tat day i been scold by both some1 n i need 2 say sorry 2 u n tat boy in the bus n in front of all ppl,i really feel so paiseh nw 2 say or think abt it again.bt,tat time i think i was oso gv fire or anger covered my eyes ady,so all ppl surrounding in the bus i oso cant c or noticed,so i wont feel paiseh loh.wakaka...i can remember tat day v dun knw y stop bus n v all go 2 the garden d.the event is like tat d:there r only 2 seats at the garden n i want 2 sit v u,bt tat boy hv come later n "rampas" my place.so tat i start crying loh,bt i oso dun knw y tat time u dun console me d.i a bit blur abt tis memory.im so angry n i say tat:if u so like sit 2gether,then u go gt marry loh.then i remember after tat some1 hv chase me back 2 the bus n u r crying too.tat boy oso scared by me til nt making any voice.haiz...so tat y i need 2 say sorry in front of all ppl loh.bt,tat time v all til r child mah,so something sad wil 4gt faster n v start 2 play again 2gether the next day.i really so miss the childhood moment.oops...i til remember tat my some1 tel me tat:pls dun b so attract by girl cuz later u wil b trapped just like hw adam been trapped by eve.tat time i think i oso dun think so much loh.if nw some1 say the same thing v me then i knw hw 2 reply back.if i nt attract by girl then i think u need 2 worry loh.right?he3...bt nw i ady knw lah,tat time d feeling is btw bro n sis,nt wat love lah.cuz im the only child in family mah,so i hope tat i hv a sis like u loh.til nw oso same wor,bt i knw tat u ady treated me as ur bro loh.so,last word:tq,my sis.